Monday, March 28, 2005
Bad news for me, sadly for my heart.
Hi, first things first, well...yes I have news about the thing that have been worrying all this last days, and they are bad news for me, and basically for my heart, let me tell you, if you don't wanna read it, it's ok.
Last nite one of my friends which is one of the bestfriends of her went out to have some dinner and she basically couldn't handle on her mind what all she knew about the thing, so she told me to hold on very hard because she was going to tell me something that I should know for a long time, and then she said: ''She was confused when she said yes to you, it was the moment that's why she said yes to you, and then the other day said she made a mistake by saying yes to you, so(by this time I was prepared for everything, but wait..)she just wants to be your friend, and other thing, she liked this other guy before you asked her, and so just to let you know that right now he's her boyfriend since 2 weeks ago(by this time I was heartbroken, you can saw it on the look of my face, totally lost.), and so she's his girlfriend now'', then I said: ''Oh, shit, I really didn't knew that, wow, it hurts.'', and so there was this big silence between her and me, then she told me that she was feeling bad for saying it to me, that she don't wanted to tell me but what the heck, that this girl told her not to tell me that, and all that kind of stuff.
I feel like shit obviously, is not a bit of good, it hurts, I fell like an idiot, stupid, or whatever, I wonder why she didn't told me first, but what can I do?, is just what it is, I'm confused, I feel I've been fooled around, but anyway that's what happened, and that how she decided to do it, she's cool, hope keep having a friendship with her, but what the heck, I just liked her so fucking much, it hurts.
I don't know where I'm going now or the direction or the way or whatever it is, anyway I still feel sad and idiot.
Last nite one of my friends which is one of the bestfriends of her went out to have some dinner and she basically couldn't handle on her mind what all she knew about the thing, so she told me to hold on very hard because she was going to tell me something that I should know for a long time, and then she said: ''She was confused when she said yes to you, it was the moment that's why she said yes to you, and then the other day said she made a mistake by saying yes to you, so(by this time I was prepared for everything, but wait..)she just wants to be your friend, and other thing, she liked this other guy before you asked her, and so just to let you know that right now he's her boyfriend since 2 weeks ago(by this time I was heartbroken, you can saw it on the look of my face, totally lost.), and so she's his girlfriend now'', then I said: ''Oh, shit, I really didn't knew that, wow, it hurts.'', and so there was this big silence between her and me, then she told me that she was feeling bad for saying it to me, that she don't wanted to tell me but what the heck, that this girl told her not to tell me that, and all that kind of stuff.
I feel like shit obviously, is not a bit of good, it hurts, I fell like an idiot, stupid, or whatever, I wonder why she didn't told me first, but what can I do?, is just what it is, I'm confused, I feel I've been fooled around, but anyway that's what happened, and that how she decided to do it, she's cool, hope keep having a friendship with her, but what the heck, I just liked her so fucking much, it hurts.
I don't know where I'm going now or the direction or the way or whatever it is, anyway I still feel sad and idiot.
# posted by David Siañez @ 9:15 AM 
